_penning my thoughts.._

2012-02-06T14:36:00.008+08:00

haiz, USA/UK/Aus is sucking away all my friendsi've already bid goodbye to 3 close friendsthe key word is not 3, but the keyword is CLOSEheng lingyun & weiying returned or count will be 5since i'm MC today, going to do a proper postanws im damn lucky im leaving soon(aka this thurs)or i think my MC count will kill meactually as i told mike that day,i'm not the kind of person that can just "tahan"

2012-02-05T02:11:00.005+08:00

didn't zzz at all last nightHad a fverI think I quite courageousI actualy went out of e house in my worst possible chuiest stateI swear I looked ashen n scared myselfSummore I still wore greyI looked dreadful,to say e leastHorribly dreadfulMe n gj quarrelled at first over miscommunication of where to meet n time etcI even spewed some hurtful words I don't meanSry babyI was just feeling extremely

2012-02-03T23:59:00.001+08:00

when i saw my friends who are all workingthey seem so stressedaltho i am e porrest, the one w the least future prospects plus e one not in a stable job etci havent felt as contented as i did in a long time(:i really dont want to do something i dont like & make myself so unhappyno amt of money can buy back my health or my happinesssometimesmoney really isnt everything:)

2012-02-03T22:42:00.002+08:00

AWESOME TIME SPENT WITH THE GIRLS!(:we were supposed to meet at blue jazz which is at bugis but changed it to HOLLAND V because today got chingaywas researching in office which bars to go (coz jenn wanted to drink)so we hit the pit restaurant in holland vatmosphere was chilling & relaxed, filled w chatterloved itbut it was abit weird tt we were e only asians aroundfood was good toonot too ex too(

2012-02-02T17:18:00.005+08:00

really great chat w mike today(:cheered me up a whole bunch!i was telling him tt the world is full of judgemental & practical pplehe said"you know i'm not one of them"then when i was abit putting myself down & he said"nah, you are notat least not the xy i know":)really feels very affirmed to be believed in(:thanks so much for being there for me when i was realy so miserable todayi am always X100

2012-02-02T13:49:00.005+08:00

always wanted to donate blood to save livesbut in e past cannt coz weight didnt meet the 45kgnow weight meet alr but i still cannotbecause im anaemic& im severely lacking in blood myself& i think pple need to donate blood to me lor!any keen doners?im on mc today again!HIGH mc countwhich proves my pnt tt when i dont like what im doing i get sickwhen i was flying in 2010, my mc count was only 2!now

2012-02-02T11:26:00.003+08:00

if only im born a guy...things wld be easier & less screwed up.guys dont have "shelf life" guys dont have girls kind of health problemsguys can compartmentalize their problems & emotionsguys dont have periodguys dont have to give birthguys dont have to lose their figure & health after giving birthguys "prime period" lasts X2 tt of girls, compare a guy at 40 & a girl at 40guys can afford to go out

2012-02-01T22:26:00.002+08:00

very shagged after tuition but still happy:)taught them Chinese for the first time coz their parents said their chi was chuiN they are really rightTheir Chinese is really darn chuBut I really felt pleasure in teaching them ChineseAlmost forgotten how much I loved Chinese(:Came early while Nicole was sill sleepingSaw her wrapped in her blanket curled upSo cute so lovelyFelt my heart smile n surged

2012-01-31T20:49:00.000+08:00

Today I finished up my work, took half day n went homeWas feeling v unwellDidn't recover in time for tuition so I changed it to tmlHope can recover by tml for work n tuitionSat mum just informed me I have a darn impt appt in morn/afternoonBut on e other hand also muffin outing tt I will be gg w bfShe's darn upset w me nowCan I spilt mself into two?

2012-01-31T20:37:00.002+08:00

I hate it when I'm sick coz i feel darn grumpy n cranky when I'm sickShivering all over now:(Srupid must be talk on e phone too much yestd n todayEven my throat is gg& I'm freaking cold now but I'm flushesOn e brighter sideHere's something very bimbotic from JessDon't see if u don't want heh But I super super agree" a womans boobs is like a mans heightthe higher the number, the better"If u think

2012-01-31T20:25:00.000+08:00

hotColdSickFeverAiseh:(

2012-01-30T23:18:00.002+08:00

today as me & wy agreedto be a 美女，u need to have big eyesreally v few pple can pull off e 眯眼美女 lookwhich is why im not a 美女my eyes are big but not very big I was looking through fb photosBig eyesClear perfect sparkling skinDimples Long straight hairI'm becoming a true blue bimbo n I hate it ttmI'm even speaking horrible English n broken ChineseHate hate!

2012-01-30T21:37:00.002+08:00

Driving instructor:" 你出生时没有钱不是你的错，你不嫁给有钱人,那就是你的错."saw this teenage couple taking pixso blissful so innocent so happy(:我要的是这种爱情,而不是太 practical 的爱情(:爱的主旋律永远唱下去:)

2012-01-29T12:24:00.001+08:00

i decided tt i finally have to upload new songs into my mp3i havent updated them for almost two yearsrunning out of songs & listening to songs from like 2007/2008first thing i do is download "na xie nian"got tears run down my cheek while listening to this song& im glad there were tears(:

2012-01-29T00:29:00.000+08:00

love the way you hold my handalways(:

2012-01-27T23:18:00.003+08:00

its amazing how i can stare 8 hours in front of a computer doing nothingbe physically shagged but mentally blank getting a huge headache & feeling sicklythen dragging myself to tution after work wishing i didntbut then leaving tuition w a smile on my face & a lighter heart?simpleone is one tt i spend long hours at but zero fulfillmentthe other, though short, brings me much joy & fulfillment &

2012-01-26T00:42:00.001+08:00

as bf was leavinghe said "orange"i thought he was playing a color gameso i said "yellow"he said "orange" againi said "green"then he was like"PASS ME THE ORANGE ON THE TABLE LAR!!"

2012-01-24T17:42:00.003+08:00

HAPPY DRAGON CNY!(:to me, cny is e most impt in e whole yrmore than x'mas etcbecause im a chinese & altho i quite wild, my thinking is still quite traditional onebecause my family is relatively traditional kind(:i always want to be a good wife onealways want to be a good cookbut the key word is WANTi am neither a good wife material or good cook hehbut i believe in nan zhu wai, nv zu nei& terms

2012-01-24T11:38:00.003+08:00

You know deep down despite everythingI love my family because we are familyIf one day they all become poor n unsuccessfulI'll still love themPerhaps even love them more because now we can put all the materialistic, status & cars asideTo really love each other for who we areI hate pple who are materialistic For a while I was afraid I was because bf always say I am materialisticCoz I take cabs,

2012-01-22T22:12:00.002+08:00

& OMGZthe doorbell suddenly rang when me & mummy were watching tvi really v sian at mummy because she always flies to the toilet to change clothes etcleaving me alonei was thinking of gg to comb my hair & change clothes too since i was feeling sick, headache & chui like madbut then i thought the poor pple wld be standing outside for so longso i went to open the doorsaw those girls & i thought

2012-01-22T20:30:00.003+08:00

this ncny i am just tiredstupid, was shopping with bf, wanting & zk yestdthen it started rainingme & bf shared my umbrellabut the rain was too big & wind too big, it started upside down & nearly flew awayso we were like drenched in the rain for so longGRR!

2012-01-22T11:06:00.001+08:00

can i take MC for CNY?:D

2012-01-21T13:56:00.003+08:00

every cny is my biggest stress pointits like an annual report review"so what achievements have you achieved in your life?"maybe mine is quite blank so very paisehsuddenly i feel e stress to excel, like e rest of my family membersthe guys with their high flying career etcdriving their audis, mercs & bmwlooking at pple who trotting to the bus stop & wondering how pple can live tt wayactually to be

2012-01-21T01:51:00.001+08:00

money is impt to mebecause it allows me to shower my loved ones w care & let them lead a comfortable life!(:i will start to be sweeter to my friends instead of only my boyfriendActually I don't love them any lessJust tt since young I am zhong se Qing youAnws a constant remidersmile always & be happy!

2012-01-21T00:07:00.002+08:00

boyfriend's 24th birthday1) surprise 1: surprised him at midnight with a cake & a braun buffel wallet.(:2) surprise 2: hand made calender in the afternoon3) surprise 3: his army buddies at tampopo4) surprise 4: the $150 A&F polo shirt tt he liked but will nvr buy. (actually honestly, i feel the pinch. it's the most expensive tshirt i've ever bought & i think its insane)HAPPY 24TH BABY!(:i spent a

2012-01-20T14:22:00.002+08:00

awesome time w bimbos last night!altho i wasnt feeling wellbut i really felt so much happier being w themthey r one of e few pple who can really accept me for who iam(:xoxo!!surprised bf at midnight w a cake & a candlepassed him his present which is a wallet!i alsmot cldnt make it in timewent there totally sweating & stinkyhope he likes it!(:dinner tog later!(:

2012-01-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

i just want to say thatsay no to discrimination!it's okays to look up & admire pple at the top of the social ladder& i admit social status are prevelant in societies where we are demarked by our race, religion, gender, social status etcbut it seriously pisses me off & makes me very upset to see pple of a lower status being unequally treatedif you cant treat everyone equally, at least accord them

2012-01-15T18:38:00.004+08:00

there must be something tt im not doing right in my lifesomething tts missing in my lifei just cant place my finger on itit must have something to do w unfulfilled dreams, unsatisifed passionssomething abt my career/future/life.met up w bimbos yestd(:chanel bimbo told me honestly tt i was much less attractive than i used to beshe said my looks change alot & not as pretty as i used to be lorsmthg

2012-01-14T01:04:00.002+08:00

watched girl w dragon tattoo w bfquite hyped up about it after watching the adbut maybe my expectation too high, it didnt meet my expectationsome small but annoying things1) no chinese subtitles, i cldnt catch them all e time2) great music, great setting, great everything; but i had trouble catching & comprehending everything3) the sex scenes were totally unnecessary4) daniel craig had a totally

2012-01-07T00:21:00.002+08:00

on a bright friday night, me & my mum are arguing about a subjective topic where opinions & judgements matterno one is right, no one is wrong, just a difference in opinioni guess everyone has their own views, their own thinkingswe just dont see eye to eyejust came back from chinatown w bfhp died on me at 5 plusheng me & bf prearranged meeting place before it diedwe went chinatown & i fell in love

2012-01-05T00:03:00.003+08:00

talking to sha makes me sadwhen he realize i wasnt flyinghe told me "wasted. seriously alex"to him, im goodi cld have achieved so much more & adapted, learnt, absorbed & enjoyedto him i was a gd stewardess& i hate to sound zi lian but i think so tooi agree, wasted& i feel a huge wave of sadness wash through mewasted, xiaoyuan wastedtoday was a shit day & im exhaustedthe only thing i did right in

2012-01-03T22:50:00.003+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHlost so much money!!!okays, lost is the wrong wordSPENT is the right word*guilty ttm**kicks myself ttm**SAD FACE*today im super busy because edwin has left& im e only one left in e dept to fend everythingi was tired, i was stressedbut i was also happyi've been left feeling like a vase for so longbought to place in e office to stare at the computerbrain drain = brain draining

2012-01-01T19:05:00.004+08:00

i cant believe there are pple jealous of my sharp jawmine is too protruding alrneed to remove the 4 wisdom teeth then it will go back to normal.i apologized to bfi know he hates it when i do things like tt behind his backactually our character is somewhat the same,we both very full of prideif he contacted my friends behind my backi'll be pissed as wellcommunication & trust is v impt in a r/seven

2012-01-01T14:26:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 2012!(:had an awesome party last nightthank you to those who came; somemore so last minutemy two fears were : not enough food & nothing to doboth fears proved unfounded as we all had a blasttruly, really enjoyed myself & im glad everyone did too!(:we counted down at the pool thoughin e middle of e pool actually!rene forgot to bring her sparklers alas but still we had fun!gj only said the

2011-12-31T19:22:00.003+08:00

last night barely slept altho i was wiped out from my page one warehouse saleit took me three hours & i was sweating like a pig & chui ttmmadness, more of tt another time - the page one sale& i was VERY sickfeverish on & offanws yestd night apparently i gung hoor rather, mouth itchy act smart & wanted gj to be able to spend more time w his friendsme & my big mouth, i really regret opening it

2011-12-28T04:48:00.002+08:00

I think this time it just showsa huge red flag is being raisedthat my body is too weak to fight against any kind of illnessdepending heavily on medicine to fight out the germsbut my body on its own is slowly draining & collapsing from e strainim scared:(

2011-12-28T04:10:00.001+08:00

Fever & temp rising.:((

2011-12-28T01:36:00.000+08:00

thanks jiemeis for accompanying me while I can't sleep.:) Very appreciated!

2011-12-28T01:05:00.001+08:00

:(((((((((((((

2011-12-27T23:19:00.004+08:00

anws wld be gg for a blood test once my illness has clearedhighly recommended i think family doc jiu shi family docthey truly care for youCoz he has seen me grow up from a noisy little girl to a even noisier teenager I think he's concerned why am I so weakWhy did my body decline so much I miss my old neighborhoodI feel so safe thereI feel so belong there, so extremely simpleI didn't have much

2011-12-27T23:04:00.002+08:00

chew Wei just gave birth to her second soncan't help but feeling abit envious2 sons leh! If I'm her, I will try for e third one for a daughterheehee(:will be gg back to work tmlnot coz I'm well coz Bo pianAnws mummy trotted in & told me if I don't wanna go it's okaycoz she can tell Im v xin kubut yr end closing, great time to fall sickI think I will stun Edwin tmlI look awful - my face is puffy n

2011-12-27T22:42:00.002+08:00

one yr ago i was also sick& I hoped 2011 wld be a healthier yearbut one yr latermy health plunged to the worst it has ever beenthe unimaginableif this is karma,then im sure im being punishedin e worst form of punishmenti deserve iti close my eyes but I don't sleep sometimes i imagine im back in my old homemummy's worried; i can tellshe keeps holdin my hand doc also concerned at the rapid decline

2011-12-27T20:57:00.001+08:00

i just want to be healthy& brave

2011-12-27T18:22:00.003+08:00

I today yaya papayadisinfected the whole house,mopped the whole housewashed buckets of clothes & hung thembut stupid me & bad timingi opened all e windows to air the house & dry the floorsthen put carebear nxt to the window coz I had just cleaned the sofathen went to showerduring the time I was showering,sunny weather decided to turn to rainy weatherWhen I came out,my sofa was wet from the rain,

2011-12-27T12:03:00.003+08:00

the awful realisation tt i loved taking mrts & hated taking cabs in secondary school feeling sick in cabs & loving to prance from one mrt to another& i was so much healthier in secondary schmaybe the solution to a healthier me is v simple - take less cabs & more mrtbecause mrt makes me walk down stairs, to the stations & walk abitwhile with cab, i just stand there & flag; no walking& honestly, if

2011-12-26T23:35:00.005+08:00

after several days of comparison & observation, i can conclude that kleenex tissues are REALLY the best for pple with running nose. they are gentle, soft & gentle on the nose. no abrasions, no itchinessjust o soft, so smooth & so gentle on your noseKleenex rocks my socks!there is no fixed age to get marriedbut as a very tentative guidelinefor a girl,between 24-28 is just nicefor a guy,between 28-

2011-12-26T23:29:00.000+08:00

the smses from buddy & cs came in about the same timesmses of concernfeels very cared forYAY!!!(:its so nice to have friend!germs germs germsgo away!!!

2011-12-26T22:02:00.002+08:00

i dont seem to get bettercldnt rest well coz kept sweating & sweating at nighti suppose its goodflush out the toxicsbut cldnt really zz:(WAHT_Ton MC tmlsian ttm!feels really sickmy loss of appetite also scares meits like i just dont have e appetite to eatsometimes mummy dangle a sugar coated sweet in front of megood chat w mummy!or rather good craokmy voice isnt baxck yetT_Tmay have to go see

2011-12-26T11:02:00.002+08:00

everyone shld be warm & well fedat least on xmas daysaddening to see taxi drivers struging to make a living,uncles walking with a limp etceveryone shld have e basic neccesities in lifewarm shelter,food & comfortbest if everyone has loveeveryone shld be lovedby a parent,by a sibling, by a partner,by their children,by friends:)

2011-12-26T10:58:00.002+08:00

santamy only wish this yearis to regain what i lostdun need anything newthank you santa(:

2011-12-26T10:30:00.001+08:00

FmlSick on Christmas dayTo be specificVery sick on Christmas dayDidn't manage to sleep last night tooWhich makes me sicker than sickWas runnig a temperature above 38Usually I fever mb 37-38 kindBut if I 38,means I really sickfml:(

2011-12-23T23:18:00.003+08:00

i am totally savouring my book now(:it came just at the right timewhen i was feeling dreary, when i was losing idealismits like as i read it, the romantism & idealism flows back into methe surge of joy, the surge of being mei'm not really a fan of cliche romantic novels to be honestbut this time i just savoured the romantism & idealismi tasted it& it wasnt just about pure romantism &

2011-12-22T22:17:00.004+08:00

dear santamy life is kind of stable & okays nowall aspects seem okays, except for my careeri enjoyed being a stewardess for the 1.5 yrs therethank you for giving me the best mum in the worldthanks for giving me my darling boy whom i love dearlythanks for giving me close friends & dear friends who are extremely supportive & close & stand by my side through my worst(:santa, what should i do about

2011-12-22T21:03:00.002+08:00

i cant find my watch!i strongly suspect i chucked it into one pocket& today i lazily dumped all the clothes into the washing machine withut checkingit kept making an usual sound, like some item is being spinned aroundso i pauysed e washing machine & dipped my hand in the whole pile of soapy water, pulling out item by itembut cldnt find it!>_

2011-12-21T23:10:00.001+08:00

LOVE DOESN'T ERASE THE PASTBUT IT MAKES A DIFFERENCE TO THE FUTURE!lunch today with my favourite girls!xoxomuacks!!!!

2011-12-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

things i MUST get soon!1) diary 2) 2012 organizerneed to get these twomust!!!

2011-12-18T05:52:00.003+08:00

gimme some time, I promise I'll be better(((:later sure gg to stone pls let e kids don't have so much energy laterim not as pretty as I used to be that much I have to admitMy health probs has taken it's tollbut my mum still loves meI am still her daughter(:There's sill alot more I wanna do for the worldFor the children Arnd me,for e poor, for e elderlyFor the pple who aren't as lucky as me(:

2011-12-18T05:19:00.002+08:00

亓心和快乐是不一样的我开心但快乐我已经很久没有真正的快乐了 honestly,forgiving others is easyespecially given my character (forgiving doesn't mean forget & trust tho)but it's so hard to forgive myselfeverytime i make a serious mistake,it takes years for me to tell myself"it's okays xiaoyuan"it really takes YEARS & i beat myself up emotionally even if the other party has long forgave me我犯的错，我原谅不了自己身边的人和我一起受罪今年全军覆没我可是赔上了健康，赔上事业

2011-12-17T00:51:00.000+08:00

my eyes are gg to be so swollen tmlT_Tbut yeah, i cried straight for 1.5 hourswhile blasting my musicphone call w bestie cheered me up - alotthank you babei love you so muchhhhhhhms lee weiyingthis kiss is for youTHANK YOUwhen you are feeling the worstwhen ur best friend bothers to spend time cheering you upu really feel betteri appreciate the effort altho i know ur tiredMUACKS!!!!

2011-12-16T20:33:00.003+08:00

我很久很久没有哭到这么凄惨了 tml cfm eyes gonee last time i cried so badly was prob more than one year ago

2011-12-16T19:00:00.001+08:00

Blogging from my iPhoneI really truly need a good good cryI keep failing at the things I really want recentlyI'm really very very 累& really v v 失败败给自己so angry at myself

2011-12-15T22:57:00.005+08:00

today is a very sad daymy accounts screw upi was so downright miserable i nearly just felt like crying in officeback to the days where i emo ovr accounting in universityor hugging myself in my old house crying over a maths in secondary schwhere my sec 3 l1r4 was 23!was VERY SAD:(work sucks for nowreally...i havent felt so depressed for so longits like i need to go out to buy presents for pple to

2011-12-14T23:47:00.003+08:00

SHE SAID YES!!(:okays actually that is quite fei4 hua4they are ROM-ing on monday, nan dao she will say no meh!since i was early, i walked to muimuis office to pass her the book she wantedits not super duper far but it was super duper ma fan lo!hmph!what a night!great meeting up w serene, chilling w her at tccaltho it was freaking cold & we were shivering like mad BRRbut it was so good lying on

2011-12-13T23:24:00.006+08:00

ever since bf started working, he's been busy& tired outhe's been ending work very latewe only meet on wkendsBEING THE GIRLFRIEND OF A NAVY OFFICER ISN'T EASY!im starting to catch glimpse of the future HAHAnow at least we still can meet on wkends, think when he REALLY sails out into open seas, i may not be able to see him for weeks or even mthssometimes may not even be able to contact via

2011-12-09T22:52:00.002+08:00

i just need to haolian!finished wrapping 50 presents all by myself!okays, mum did help me out w a few yestd love you mummy!(:but otherwise, shopping, purchasing & packing, gift wrapping all done by YOURS TRULY!(:i feel really very proud of myself!kaiwen said its really pretty & well donei also agree actuallywhen i looked at e other stuff, felt my presents really shone out, attractive n all

2011-12-06T20:53:00.003+08:00

today is a lousy day! T_Ti was dying from 9am to 4pm because i had NOTHING to dobored to tearsthen 4pm thomas asked me to do up a financial report in which edwin preparedhe gave me the rough idea & i got itthought i very smart, in the end i died under all the excel formulas & vlook ups etcwork until 545pm had to restartthomas had to come help melao kui!in e end he told me nvm, submit tml!then w

2011-11-29T22:56:00.009+08:00

after 9 years since my first periodit has been wildly irregular since secondary schuntil so old alr still havent stabilize yet, mummy also worriedi asked e doctor why i so old le period still havent regularafter a checkuphe told me"because your hormones havent stabilized"then i was so worried until he told me"when you fully develop(means i still havent finish growing? means i can grow taller)your

2011-11-27T23:12:00.004+08:00

i hate to sound like a si tiko pehbut when my bf took off his shirt at the pooltop at MBSi was like salivating & drooling!so proud of my extremely handsome bfplus he has muscles!i have something against man boobsbut my bf doesnt have, his is a flat, firm chest!i got so eggcited i started smsing my jiemeis"omg, my bf is so hot!"think they wanted to throw me off a roottop w my endless gushingmy bf

2011-11-27T15:10:00.004+08:00

yestd went to MBS to celebrate gj's friend's bday!(:omgz, the view is amazing, spectacularbeautiful, best in singaporebreathtaking so you guys shld go see yrself!(:while e guys hit gym, i hit e hot poolhot but love it, helped my blood circulation(:then we went up to the skyparkstaring enviously as the guys soaked atop the MBS pool looked so freaking fun but i din bring clothesmarched to try on a

2011-11-24T23:04:00.003+08:00

i miss my wingsi miss being in the skydeskbound driving me crazybut i gritting my teethnow i know why so many seniors told me it'll be hard adaptingnow i know why they say no matter how shit a flight get, its only tt flightin office, u face e same ppl day in day outi was so miserable every minute was a tortureheng i met wy for lunch & we dabao & sat by e park to eat & chatsometimes i miss my

2011-11-23T23:13:00.003+08:00

took a pix w mummy at west coast plaza today afte dinner xoxo!(:okies luckily its not a close up pix or else you can see tt my eyes are swollen, my lips are freaking redbecause i am freaking heaty & sick!sian sian sian!doc actually gave me 2 days MC one lorbut i si cheng, din wanna take so many MCs so i went to work todayit was horrible & my head was throbbin so i went to make some tea hoping can

2011-11-22T11:48:00.003+08:00

i love the song na xie nian so much!!(:i was singing it to bf on e phonethen i decided to record it to see how it sounds likesounds nice (bhb) so i went online to see if i cld get e minus onebut e minus one all for e guy's version, key differentbut i had fun screeching to the guys version hehfinished watching xing yi last episodei dont mind tt he returned to minfei but why must he hurt zhiyi

2011-11-20T21:26:00.002+08:00

today is a long & tiring day!(:okies very tiring more like iti used up 18 pieces of tissue papers dabbing away my sweat from start to endmy sweat was pouring down in torrets T_Tblowing ballooons(in case u think i v li hai, we used a helium pumper)but fingers were v pain from tying the balooons.selling balloons & our on e spot painting magnets were a smash hitthe tiles were almost sold out halfway

2011-11-19T23:52:00.002+08:00

oh & abit pek chek pole recharge during wkend,my wkend all early mornit's not I bz whole day,just tt all stuff start in e morn n end afternoonit's like today I woke up,went to boon lay for meeting,spent abt two hrs in meeting, spent another half an hr checking e accounts & signing itspent close to two hrs eating & chattg w Kaiwen over pizzaTook bus to jurong pointSpent two hrs shopping &

2011-11-19T23:25:00.003+08:00

you know pple have been telling me how shit their probs are& how they wanna go overseas & just run away from all thesebe it r/s problems, family probs, quarter life crisis etcwad im gg to say below is really frome experience(:if you wanna take a holiday to unwind & relax, it's prob a good thingyou will have fun overseas, you can enjoy yrself & you can release stressbut if you are escaping

2011-11-15T22:53:00.003+08:00

happy like a bird today~went to BBDC for my final theory testmissed all my practice coz was busy at work & forgot abt itdidnt really study at all, only managed to finish reading it last min before i left home for the testlast time passing rate 80% i thinknow revised to 90%the aunties both nxt to me failed plus e uncle behind me failed(yes i peeped at their screen when they left their comp)i felt

2011-11-14T21:01:00.004+08:00

so much unspoken words, so much unspoken thoughtsyestd waa really very scary...thank gdness im fine nowbut it was really nice talking to edwin!not heavy hearted stuff, more on light hearted stuff& i nearly went crossed eyed doing my accounts todayi think my eyes halved in size after checking 30 vessels!think am getting abit of a hang of this accounts thingy~*fingers crossed*debit credit credit

2011-11-12T16:25:00.002+08:00

pls dont let there be complications..WAHreally dun wanna go hospitaltoday was really quite sicklast night was downright miserable ttmi even tried to find huat to take my placebut then mummy told me "ur poor friends"then i realized tt since i take this responsibility, must be responsibledont push it to othersso i forced myself to gulp tea to cool down my temperature then i wentit wasnt as bad as i

2011-11-12T00:15:00.002+08:00

have been v materialistic & practical recentlydoggedly thinking of money & how to earn more moneypractical aspects of lifesocial status & allbut it makes me less happyso i decided to revert back to the idealistic mebecause i realized, not being myself even if i have money will make me more unhappyso i wanna be idealistic, romantic & irritating againaltho it might render me an unpopular person,

2011-11-11T22:42:00.003+08:00

working life is really boring to the maxi think my life now has stood still, boring ttmcant believe my peers actually survived one yr of this stuffso two very depressed girls met for lunchwent to cityhall to meet wy for lunchtime spent was really shorti thought she cld cheer me up but she appeared even more depressed than meits like she had 4 yrs of wild & fun indepdent moments studying abroadi

2011-11-10T20:51:00.002+08:00

yestd was horribletoday was worseall i can say is my timing really sucksi am darn proud for surviving todayi ate sweets, drank coffee, ate medicineit was horriblebut i triedi really really did..wo yi jing jing li le!actually i feel im luckier than i was years agobecause i have so many close friends to tok to!so many yrs ago my besties were in USAnow on top of them, i have athar-san, jiahui-san,

2011-11-09T21:07:00.002+08:00

just came back from the doctors!i waited for dr yap to come backso surprised when he told us he had surgery done a few days agocoz one e blood vessels to his heart was blocked100% blockage somemore, needed immed op:(it seems horrifying that even doctors are succeptible to illnesssummore a fantastic doctor like him

2011-11-09T13:07:00.003+08:00

athar told me one day before i was due to work ttour life comprises of three parts1) our professional life(also known as work life)2)our personal life(also known as our social life)3) our spiritual life(:i guess in some ways there will be links here & therelike our professional life will be linked to our personal life etcthis yr my spiritual life has been more enhanced than prev yrsthanks to

2011-11-09T11:04:00.004+08:00

you know mummy was like telling me today dr yap not in officeso asked me just go any clinic around my housei still considering because i always go back to my old family doctorexcept for when i was flying, mcs not accepted by my family doctorbut ok la,in one year, i had only 2 mcsYA I KNOW I ALWAYS LIKE HALF SICK WANT DIEbut i rarely took casual MCs for flights unless serious stufflast night i was

2011-11-09T10:35:00.002+08:00

gosh i'm at home nowbecause i went to work sick yestd for e finance workshop/meetingto finish off some stuff, finally passed the quizzesthen was shooed home because i was literally a walking germthen edwin said dont come today because my boss coming in today & she's 8-9 mths pregnantoh well,my first MC after first weekim not that sick but i need to be considerate for my pregnant bossbut im not tt

2011-11-07T23:10:00.003+08:00

made a card for bf to ask him jiayou for his examswanted to pass it to him on saturdaybut tt person actually overslepti got so pissed i just tossed e card away in the trash cani hate waiting for pplei guess i'll only meet him after his exams thenlike 2 weeks laterwill occupy my stuff w other stuffi dont mean to sound bhbbut i love my own handwriting when i use a ball point peni'm so gg to stock

2011-11-07T18:42:00.002+08:00

no friends, i havent been up for an exciting long wkendnot going out with my boyfriend everydayreality: sitting & rotting away at hometotally lor.but one good thing is tt mummy has been cooking alot recently!(:yestd she cooked soya sauce chicken & brocolli w mushroomstoday she cooked fried udon for lunch& she is cooking my favourite soya sauce roasted pork plus bittergourd today!both my favourite

2011-11-07T11:33:00.002+08:00

For all of the time that I tried for your smileFor making you think that I was worth the whileSo your love love love love love would be mineFor sending you flowers and holding your handThat no one was there to take a standBut then love love love made us blindAnd I'm so sorry that I hurt youSorry that I fell throughSorry I was falling in love with youI'm sorry that it came trueBut sorry doesn't

2011-11-07T11:02:00.003+08:00

my mum says im like my dadactually i finally understand why he stay away from home for so many yearsbecause he is as ai mian zi as i amhe wldnt return unless he is a successful businessmanmy mum says i am a complete carbon of my dadescapist & ai mian zii dont want to live in a 3 room HDBi dont want!i want my child to grow up in a comfortable environment

2011-11-07T00:56:00.001+08:00

im very very stressed out!:(what am i gg to do?

2011-11-06T21:54:00.008+08:00

what i've gained from my buddhist class is thatfamily is very important in building one's charactersecured & well loved kids grow up to secured peopleone look i can tell who will be the secured & sensible oneswho will be the attention seeking ones, who will be the weak ones, who will be the insecure ones, who will be the charming oneshonestly, i feel tt biological genes are somewhat already

2011-11-06T16:50:00.005+08:00

a few snippets for viewing pleasure!

2011-11-06T15:57:00.007+08:00

OL life!(:more pictures of how i look as an OL = old ladyposted 2 pix - same pix, different lighting effects:Di think real life better tho HAHA!anws today was fulfilling but VERY tiringi was like half dead after thatwe did magnet painting for e kids, the kids designed, drew & painted their own magnets!but it was extra tiring because athar wasn't aroundso had to move furniture, prepare for the

2011-11-05T16:24:00.004+08:00

i was like reading up on news onlinelike im not e kind who consistently reads upi like to spam my news all at one timehehthen of course, as you know i cant stay one reading news for too longso i turned to reading gossips & celebrity news insteadwell, to a certain extent its also considered newswas reading up on demi more, ashton kutcher, heidi klum, angelina, brad pitt, jennifer anniston, saral

2011-11-04T22:45:00.001+08:00

im such a horrible gf!im extremely possessive! i can't go three days without seeing my bf one:(Learning more stuff abt finance at work than I ever did in uniIn fact I din learn anything in uniI starting from scratch nowSo tired..So stressed..Need motivation!

2011-11-02T22:46:00.001+08:00

heng my contract is only a temp oneif not dunno how long i can take!

2011-11-02T20:46:00.003+08:00

today we had lunch at a boutique hotelbecause my bosses are atasanws im so happy, company account!(:had the LONGEST MOST BORING meeting with the three danish guysactually its not tt boringbut somehow i was restless & lack of sleep, i nearly fell asleepit was torture for me, the two hours i really almost diedthen we went for lunch at a boutique hoteli ate YANG CHOU FRIED RICE - $18.90 -.-but it

2011-11-02T17:39:00.000+08:00

I dunno how much longer of this I can take alrDying slowly...How can pple take office jobHow xan they stand itI can do itBut I'm darn miserable

2011-11-02T08:37:00.000+08:00

Anws gg off at 5.30pm is in a way a good thingAltho boring laBut tt means I can go home on e dot everyday to cook dinner for Guojun!(in e future la)More time w family!:)) happy happy!Money is not e final pursuit of everythingHappiness is!Family time is!

2011-11-02T00:01:00.003+08:00

I'm v v blessedGo home with my mum waiting for meHave a loving bf & amazing friends<3Even my assistant manager is really sweet to meMade my first day so much betterBrought me around, bought stationery for me,help me get access card,bring me to mrt station,fixed up y stuff for me,brought me snacks,helped me w my quizBut e thing is He reminds me of a previous jerk His face but not his character